I’M about to drop a bomb

There is a bed scene in this recap. And also the beginning of a rape scene.

I can’t even.

For some reason my blog posts keep getting deleted 40 minutes to one hour after I post them, and I’m not sure why. I keep double checking my posts now, and I’ll start backing them up after I finish one. I’m just so frustrated and weirded out, but I don’t want to leave WordPress. Sigh.

The episode starts with Jin Xiu realizing her love for Zuo Zhen. She announces it to Ying Dong, and she decides to go straight to Zuo Zhen’s mansion to announce her love for him. I like how she’s straight up about it and she doesn’t play any games after her realization.

Unfortunately  Zuo Zhen tries to avoid her because he thinks that he should stay away from her in order to protect her, so Jin Xiu wasn’t able to see him.

Meanwhile, Ming Zhu realizes that her executive status at Mei Hua had been revoked. She confronts Xiang Shao Han about it. He responds that he complied with not spying on her, as she felt like his pet, but now that she has relations with the Japanese, he has to intervene.

Ming Zhu is shocked to know that he knows about her interaction with the Japanese.

So she goes to Long Yi to tell him that she can’t continue doing this anymore, because Xiang Shao already knows about their interaction.

Fucking…. ASDFLKA:SDLFK Long Yi pulls the creepiest and most aggressive thing and pulls her towards a mirror and pulls down the back of her shirt to reveal her tattoo. He said, “As long as you have this tattoo, you’re a slave to the Japanese empire”.

Which leads me to wonder… I mean, I’m sure she’s slept with either Ying Dong or Xiang Shao – wouldn’t they have seen this questionable tattoo on her back before?

Ming Zhu was so shocked and in such despair from this and decides to cut her wrists. Her ‘servant’ goes to get Ying Dong (who seems to be weirdly in her house, but I could be wrong). and he tries to comfort her. Except that suddenly Xiang Shao shows up, and Ming Zhu forced Ying Dong to hide.

Meanwhile, Boss Fung is still trying to kill off Zuo Zhen. He gave him two warehouses with shipments that Zuo Zhen is  supposed to check for discrepancies and for illegal items, but really he’s planning to ambush Zuo Zhen.

Meanwhile, Jin Xiu is coincidentally nearby this warehouse. Upon seeing his car, she decides that this is a good opportunity to confront Zuo Zhen and profess her love for him.

This raises two questions for Zuo Zhen:

1) Could you be any less suspicious of Boss Fung giving you two warehouses to look over? I mean he did try to kill you a few times right?

2) Why is that you have to check out the warehouse personally, only with two other men? I mean this is just mundane work that could be done by any of your other men? I mean, you are the boss of a triad clan right?

As we will never get the answers to these questions, the triad ambushed Zuo Zhen and Jin Xiu  end up escaping into a cave.

Boss Fung’s guys manage to sneak in two grenades, and the explosion ends up closing the cave up. Jin Xiu finds this as an opportune moment to get a fever.

They’re finally alone, and she finally gets the chance to express her love for Zuo Zhen, which I must admit, was a pretty cute scene.

Jin Xiu and Zuo Zhen end up getting rescued by his men, Shi Hao and Tang Hai.

She wakes up in the hospital (and she’s perfectly fine) and she immediately leaves to see Zuo Zhen in his mansion, who’s apparently in a coma. Tang Hai treats her like complete crap, saying “Don’t ever let this woman near this mansion again, she’s not welcome here” and saying very mean things to her, just purely on the basis that Zuo Zhen voluntarily made the personal decision to risk his life for her.

Jin Xiu realizes all that Zuo Zhen has done for her after bumping into Mr. Zhou – who told her that everything that she’s had, and all the problems that went away, were because of Zuo Zhen.
Mr. Zhou, who hooked her up with the job and house, was under orders by Zuo Zhen to befriend her and give her all that she has right now.

Realizing this, she decides to sit outside of the mansion until she heard news from Zuo Zhen.

I mean… like doesn’t she have to work?

Zuo Zhen wakes up from his coma and approaches Jin Xiu outside his mansion. He does not look like he just came out of a coma.

Jin Xiu professes her love for him again, and to prove that she is feeling love instead of gratitude, they embrace and kiss.

Which was pretty cute, I had to admit.

They later have a dinner inside Zuo Zhen’s mansion, cooked by Zuo Zhen. At this point, Tang Hai acts suspiciously nice to Jin Xiu especially after he told her that she wasn’t welcomed at the mansion, and for everyone to get her off the premises… but drama.

Literally the moment that Jin Xiu settles down, this happens. She looks fifteen years older. WHAT HAPPENED? CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN HER CHANGE IN HAIRSTYLE, AND WAY OF DRESSING? Is it because she settled down with a man?! I don’t understand.

This just happened, except she went from 20 to 35 all of a sudden. Must be the love.

OMG. BRACE YOURSELF. THE BED SCENE. She comes home from dinner with Ying Dong, and he picks her up and throws her onto the bed. DIDN’T YOU GUYS JUST START DATING? AREN’T YOU GUYS MOVING TOO FAST?

He proceeds to say a bunch of very unsexy and unappealing things like, “Your hair is mine, your body is mine, your face is mine, everything of yours is mine, you are my woman” before they have sex. Those are very big red flags, but since Zuo Zhen is Huang Xiao Ming, he gets away with it.

They proceed to have a very slow and awkward bed scene.

Which I was just cringing… I thought it was so awkward and unnecessary to add. Let’s keep it PG here guys. C’mon.

*screams internally*

Ying Dong asks Ming Zhu to leave with him to the UK to start anew. I’m so happy for her since she finally seems happy and free, and she even releases the bird in her cage to signify that she’s free.

This is seen by Xiang Shao, and he interpreted this unusual gesture as her leaving him (which was pretty spot-on).

I was so happy for her to find happiness… but sadness will strike soon…

Zuo Zhen wakes up the naked Jin Xiu with a kiss, and she tells shyly and embarrassedly him to turn around and look away while she puts on clothes. Wait. Didn’t you guys just…

Whatever. I’m over it. She’s ‘innocent’ and ‘naive’, I get it.

Even the puppy in this scene can’t neutralize the scarring bed scene from before.

Jin Xiu literally looks like his mom now.

Zuo Zhen opens up to Jin Xiu about his past. His father was a loyal man to China, and he was about to kill off a traitor of China, when he got assassinated. His mother couldn’t take it anymore one day after his death, and committed suicide as well, and that’s why Zuo Zhen is the way that he is now.

Since Xiang Shao had a whiff of what Ming Zhu was about to do, he took her to the police station to show her Jin Ling in jail (I nearly forgot about her), and offered to marry Ming Zhu in order to get her to stay.

Now I don’t know if this stems from Jin Xiu officially moving out of her house and being with Zuo Zhen, but Long Yi is more pissed than normal, and he’s creepily polishing his freaken machete.

He brings Ming Zhu to his place after he realizes that she’s about to elope with with Ying Dong. He slaps her around and treats her like crap, and she finally gets the gun.

I’m like “SHOOT HIM. SHOOOOOOT HIM!!!!11!!! SHOOOOOOOT HIIIIIIIMMMM!!!!!!!!!”

But NO WHY she hesitates and he manages to get ahold of the gun.

He manages to get the gun, slaps her around again.

He leans in towards her and suddenly sees her resemblance to Jin Xiu, who looks like his dead lover. Which is f*cking twisted because he proceeds to decide to rape her… because Ming Zhu reminds him of an old dead lover?! WOULD YOU DO THAT TO YOUR OLD LOVER?! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!!?!!!!!

I really don’t know if he’s doing this because he found out Jin Xiu was officially with Zuo Zhen.

This was such an upsetting scene. Long Yi was stripping down while Ming Zhu was crawling towards the earring that mattered to her the most at that point because it symbolized her and Ying Dong’s relationship.

All this happening while the two men in her life were completely clueless on what was happening to her and couldn’t protect her from that monster.

I can’t even man I am so traumatized. WHY. LONG YI. I THOUGHT YOU WERE A GOOD GUY. WHY MUST YOU COMMIT SUCH A HORRIBLE ACT?! I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.

F*ck I hope she manages to escape in the beginning of the next episode.